I went to my best friends wedding.
Although we used to have a history together,
I was happy for him.
My feelings were between happy and odd at the same time.
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I didn't come alone.
Ustazah insisted me to accompany her since we're so close.
She knew everything about "us".
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Believe me, I had a strong heart.
No, I didn't cry.
I already have a life and I'm grateful of that.
It's just, to see him with somebody else and he still has feelings for me, it felt odd.
But I was happy at the same time.
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I knew his wife before he did.
I admit, I was the one who match made them.
His wife knew nothing about him before.
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Why did I do that?
First of all, timing.
It's all about timing.
Honestly, I knew him since we were 6 years old until now.
I knew the good and the bad sides of him.
Even if we were "together", things won't add up in "our" life.
But for his wife, she can be his "yang" to his "ying".
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I guess, no more history between us in the future. it's just me.
Don't get me wrong.
I'm happy for him,
but to be apart from someone that I used to know for a longest time,
it's a deafening silence.
Insyaa Allah,
one day,
we'll meet again.
Friends will always remain friends.
بَارَكَ اللهُ لَكَ
وَبَارَكَ عَلَيْكَ
. وَجَمَعَ بَيْنَكُمَا فِي خَيْرٍ
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